So..
So she's just gorgeous... in love and close distance to my gf. Why should I be worried... I know that she loves me. That's not the problem, the problem is.. I really have a hard time believing that someone could love be.. be in love with me. Want me. I have a problem thinking I deserve someone's love and that it's just going to run out shortly.I should expect others to try to get with her. She's gorgeous. She's so beautiful my own friends stare right in front of me, and I don't blame them. I'm proud to walk with her, but it still makes me feel insecure.. because I don't resent her for being more beautiful than I am... It will just take me some time to acept that someone that looks like her, acts like her, thinks like her, is her could want someone so below her. Im not trying to put myself down. She's going to kill me when she reads this... and I don't mean to put her anywhere with this entry.I just feel as if I will always adore her..It scares me, I think about her...and I just know she'll always be on my pedistool. I love her so much..as expected but that's okay, because she's worth every fucking second. Ew I know it sounds so corny, but thats just how I feel right now. Always. Im not worried because I don't trust her. I'm worried because I hate myself. She tries to make me feel equal. I feel equal as in I'm a person, and every person is their own, strong and independant. I just think she's better than me =)

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